It was snowing rather heavily as I walked across campus today for my afternoon meeting. While the snow isn’t visible in this picture, this was my view as I set off from the library. The snow was actually beautiful, especially since it was not accumulating (and it wasn’t terribly cold).
Archive for the ‘personal’ Category
I was rather fascinated by Clay Shirky’s blog post, A Rant About Women. I wholeheartedly agree with Meredith Farkas’ comment about the provoking title of Shirky’s post. But then again, I certainly understand that controversial titles (and subject matter for that point) garner more notice than politically correct ones. Plus, if one follows Shirky’s advice, the path to success is generally found by those to behave like an “arrogant self-aggrandizing jerk.” I don’t know Clay Shirky and am not sure if I want to actually imply that his choice of title is indicative of the arrogant self-aggrandizing jerkish behavior that he suggests us women indulge in or not (ok, maybe I do 🙂 ).
Overall, I can’t argue that I have noticed that men tend to push the envelope and promote themselves more than women. But, I do feel compelled to note that this is a generalization and is not true across the board. I also have to say that I am guilty of being the type of woman who will do almost anything to avoid self-promotion. I don’t ask for anything if I can help it. This is how I’m wired. I was raised to always think of others first and then worry about myself. There are times – many times – when I realize that I need to step up an speak for myself. But, this is difficult for me. I understand that I should be better at it – and I should try harder.
To me, the bigger issue is a societal one – what this says about the values of our society. I was troubled, very troubled, by Shirky’s admission that he actually gave the male student a better recommendation because the student had overstated his abilities. That isn’t so much self-promotion to me as it is lying. And, Shirky rewarded the student for overstating his abilities? I don’t get that at all. This is very problematic for me.
I certainly understand the fact that successes are often driven by perception, and that perception isn’t always based on reality. However, it seems to me that the reason that “arrogant self-aggrandizing jerks” succeed is because we allow it. Shirky is suggesting that we continue to perpetuate this societal structure that rewards people who are willing to break laws and risk incarceration to succeed (the incarceration thing is from Shirky’s post). I am not willing to do that.
Like Meredith, I am proud that I am not willing to compromise my beliefs in order to collect accolades. I do not want to be an arrogant self-aggrandizing jerk. I do not think it is appropriate to ask someone to write me a letter of recommendation and then overstate my abilities. Does that make me the type of woman that Clay Shirky is complaining about? Maybe – ok, yes, it does. And, I’m okay with that. Chances are, I’m not going to push myself to the top of anything that I do. As I get older, I find myself growing into myself a bit more. I’m getting more comfortable with who I am. But, I’m getting there on my terms. And I don’t think there is anything wrong with choosing not to play the game of life the way that Clay Shirky sees it. I think people need to start questioning why they are willing to say yes to people who ask for something even if they may not deserve it.
My journey to librarianship is one of serendipity – and being in the right place at the right time. I never specifically planned to become a librarian, nor did I have any specific career aspirations. I definitely tend to the type of person who makes choices based upon the opportunities that present themselves without always looking at the total sum of possibilities.
So, how did I end up as a systems librarian? My route to my current career began when I transferred to small college close to home. While in high school, I choose to go to the School of International Affairs at George Washington University in Washington DC. I had to very vague plans for study – one involved studying computer science and the other involved working for the government in international relations. I was petrified of the math involved in studying computer science, so choose the second path. I found out early on that I wasn’t at all in studying languages, economics, foreign policy, etc. The only classes that I actually enjoyed were history. I also discovered that attending a large university was not a good choice for someone with my introverted tendencies. So, I transferred to a local college close to my home – where I could ditch dorm living and get my car back.
As part of my financial aid package, I received a work-study award. I distinctly remember sitting with the student aid person going over available jobs. Because I lived close to campus, she suggested that I apply for a job in the library. The government documents assistant needed someone who could work full-time over winter break because she would be on maternity leave. I applied and found myself shortly thereafter processing government documents and developing my love of SUDOC numbers.
Throughout my remaining three years in college, I continued working in the library, in government documents, serials and the college archives. I did briefly consider going to library school right after college to study archives, but wasn’t ready to make a definite decision about the rest of my life.
After college, I worked briefly in customer service for a catalog clothing company. I did decide to go to graduate school, but applied to a Ph.D. program in history. Again, I learned that there was something else I definitely had no desire to do. I hated the entire graduate school experience – and pretty much simply walked away from the program after a professor gave me grief for going to Florida for my grandfather’s funeral.
Several weeks later, I received a phone call from the college archivist for whom I had worked while in college. The government documents assistant that I had worked for was ill and had not been able to return to work after the birth of her second child. The library needed a temporary employee to come in keep the department running in her absence. I was currently unemployed – and quite honestly was very unsure about what to do with the rest of my life.
So, I returned to the library in June of 1994 and continued my love affair with government documents. I became a permanent employee when we learned that the woman who was my first library supervisor was terminally ill – not really a happy way to get my first full-time permanent job. Fortunately, she had taught me well. And, I have her to thank for getting me into library work.
While working in government documents, there were many changes in the library. In 1995, we automated. I started a project to catalog our government documents collection in order to make sure that they would be accessible in our online catalog. This gave me the opportunity to work very closely with our cataloging librarian (who was the project manager for our automation project) and to learn about MARC and bibliographic record structure. The automation project itself was fascinating, and it taught me a great deal about our library system.
Shortly after automating, the college began construction on a new library building. As part of the new building, the library was exponentially increasing the number of computers that would be available to students. So, as part of the project, a new department was created – that of systems. Our cataloging librarian was to become the systems librarian and a new job for a library systems technician was created. The cataloging librarian asked if I would be interested in this job. I, of course, jumped at the chance. Thus, when the new library opened in July of 1998, I left my beloved government documents behind and began a new path within librarianship. I was now working with technology, something that I truly enjoyed.
After only a year in the new building, our systems librarian decided to return to the West Coast. Her job was vacant for over six months. The library administrators did interview several candidates, but none were right for the job. Meanwhile, because the job was vacant, I took on more and more of those responsibilities. In February 2000, I was offered the job of systems librarian. Because I did not have an MLS, the job title was changed to Head of Library Systems.
I would have to say that I had contemplated going to library school off and on since the mid-1990s. Several things stopped me (or got in the way). I had student loans from college and from my ill-fated, first attempt at graduate school. I was unwilling to go into additional debt. I got married – which meant melding my finances with someone else. Decisions about spending money were no longer mine alone. My husband and I decided that buying a house was our first priority. Life just got in the way.
However, while I never actually made a conscious decision to become a librarian, I had indeed found a career that I loved – one that I felt suited me and one that I like to think I was good at. By 2003, I began to seriously think about graduate school. I realized that while I might have been starting to feel old (working around 18-22 year olds can do that), I had a long time until retirement. I had found a career with which I was happy, but I started to understand that wouldn’t be the end of the story. Life, technology and libraries would continue to change, and I needed to be able to keep up. I had been in my job 5 years. I felt very comfortable with the job responsibilities, maybe too comfortable. This is why I applied to library school in 2005.
Despite some difficulties with my online program, it was a good choice. I’m not entirely sure that I learned a great deal that I hadn’t already known from my many years of library work. However, it did get me thinking about my job and librarianship – hopefully, in some new ways. It also gave me the credentials which are important in the world of librarianship.
I am now a systems librarian. I love working with library technology and being the liaison between the technology and the people who use it. There are so many challenges, but I find it rewarding to be able to help people and to resolve problems. It is also an added bonus that while I do not still work with our government documents collection, the paper stacks are right outside my office. This means that I get to indulge my first library love by browsing the stacks and checking out the documents from my favorite areas of SUDOC classification (I love T 22.44/2:, SI 1.44:, PREX 3.10/4: along with many others).
Because I felt that my primary library-related interests have shifted significantly since completing my masters in library science program, I decided to end the blog that I had started while in school and start from scratch. My plan, which is much less restrictive than the one I had for the aforementioned blog, is to write about issues that I face in my day-to-day life – primarily my day-to-day life as a systems librarian at a small academic library.
I do not have a specific vision for where this blog will go. I deliberately would like to allow myself a bit more freedom in terms of content. I certainly feel as if I am at a bit of a crossroads in my job, and I’m hoping that I can use this venue to work through some of my thoughts about technology in libraries.